hey there

i'm bored...
how come i have nth better to do.
even fashion magazine seems so tasteless to me.
aww the other day spotted a pair of flats in Zara. sigh. 189.90 ? u tell me do i look like i have cash full until it fall out from my pocket ?
but i LIKE IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok ! i like it i like it i like it. feel damn empty for few days edi cause didn't buy em.
and den anohter pair of heels in Vincci+ .... the same price.
sigh. ok forget abt it.
i have so many items in my shopping list !
how .... even millionaire would be shocked of how much i wanted to spend wtf.
duno where to goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
shopping becomes so boring when u dont' have enough cash wtf wtf wtf.
punch self.
ok basically college starting new week and i seriously dun feel lik registering yish.
ambitious abit belle embitious wtf !!!!

merrry christmas

merry chirstmas everyone !
wu ! can't believe time flies ! last year i was in penang, still with that slimmer body.
this year, i'm stucked in this not to say big or smal room in rawang, bored to death, hp battery dies... and with that uber overweight body. sigh. how can people change so much you tell me ahhahahahha
this year christmas didn't really give me much special feeling.
it juz made me realized how many friends i've lost contact with.
last years, they would stil text me... awww.... but not anymore :(
yea i agree i'm the one to blame.
you can say that i'm calculative, but when you have friends that always take advantages of you.
that's realy sick.
from there i learn to protect myself :)
or many i'm transforming into an aunty so sacrifices only meant for family but no longer for friends?
heheheh but occasionally helping of coz i would be more than happy to do.
i really hate myself for feeling dissatisfied over so many people !!!!!!!!
omg !!!!
if this situation continue, imma commit suicide wtf.


everything started off with a passion. right ?

without a passion, you wouldn't even wanna look at it, not to say to do it.

but what do you do when the passion deteriorate. or worse, gone?

emo emo emo emo emo.


so now everyone has graduated, it juz me damn.
i enrolled earlier. and ended later wtf is this.
why am i slower in everything.
so there they are... leaving already.
i feel that we are so close yet so far.
something is missing i duno.
mayb i juz didn't mix too well with them.
i'm still me, insignificant.
when i feel sad for them leaving and heading to different directions already...
well... people juz dun mind, dun care.
sigh belle.

fate ?

wow, over a month i haven updated this pity bloggie.
so why am i here blogging while i'm suppose to be sleeping.
i have so much thoughts to share, but i duno how to make them into words.
i have so much regrets in life that i duno how to patch up
sigh i'm so complicated.


SO SIAN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
din bring laptop here, doing nth wasting my time !!!!!!!!!!!
so sian !!!
ok so lately, i'm so f' addicted to online shopping.
i duno.
i think i'm trying to escape from something.
thesis. assignemtns.
i duno.
i think i'm gonna chi sin edi.

getting married !!!!!!!!!!!!!


........ not me.
sigh, so nice one, i know this girl through her ex boyfriend.
which is an extreme jerk (the guy)
and then she met someone new
heard so many things about how she was still not over her ex and so.
but today, oh no mayb yesterday mayb the day before yesterday, she is engaged.
her current proposed to her.
so sweet can.
jealous till my eye balls gonna pop out lik dat.
i have been anticipating for so long but never my turn.
she broke up and then met someone new edi. and now engaged.
so lucky.
i know i would never have such luck in my life.

yer emo for the whole day edi.
duno y oso.
inferior gua.
sigh feeling so somplicated can't even tell how exactly i'm feeling.

anyway, congratulation yo, feel happy for you :)


i personally think i'm a fast learner
but i learned fast, and i forget fast.
unless it's very traumatic or severe problem.
the thing is, today i'm going to blog in proper english, with correct grammar and spelling.
talking about learning, and being a fast lerning, most of the time i would like to think about the hiding message of every single things that have been happening around me.
by saying often, i mean that, most of the time that i am aware of.

from these 22 years, i really think i have changed alot.
i used to be a very unlikable kid, seriously bad temper, unthoughtful, princessy.
mom, i pity you for having me as your daughter :(
and i'm truly sorry.

princessy continued until i was 12 years old, so i barely have good memory during primary school.
and i would not want to meet them back.
i would not want to have gathering with them
i cannot forget how those teachers favorism towards those "good-looking" student, those daughter/son of the school teacher.
it's so bad.
they sang so badly, yet was always won prizes in competition.
but my parents never taught me about to behave/ to deal with people out there.
my mom only canned me, and then i cried, and then i hated her.
that's it.

then i started to become a real sweet pie.
i brought cakes to school for my friends.
i bought real expensive dessert for them, with my own pocket money.
so i was an idiot.
besides thank you. besides the instant smile.
what else did i get?
yes, Belle is a sweetheart.
but i was so fat, guys discriminated me.
pretty girls thought i should exist to enhance their beauty.
yes that makes me a pesimistic.
quoted a girl who thought i couldn't hear her "yer, why she so ugly one."
today, i'm prettier than you.
inside out :)

but then i realized that was not what i want.
why bothering to become a sweetheart when i get nothing?
so i only entertain people whom i like, and who like me back.
friendship is a mutual thing.
bear in mind.
a single fight can ruin the friendship, don't bother saving it.
because you know, it doens't worth it.
nothing can go on forever without conflict.
but when i found my true self.
i become fat again.

eh this is suppose to be a seriously post.
but then don't know why i found it hilarious.
today i know how important friendship is.
it's the pleasure i could never experience with the boyfriend.
it's freedom.
it's craziness :)
it's sweetness.
it's challenge.
please cherish me like the way i do.
please don't hesitate to date me becasue i have a boyfriend.
why didn't i date them 1st, becasue someone used to say, yea becasue your boyfriend isn't free.
so here we are.

and i was so embarrassed.

i need someone who understands me.

with love.

i have been eating alot

worse part, eating alot of outside food.
i think since i pakto with william, i have been eating alot of outside food.
so getting fatter and fatter !!!
this is bad
this is so bad
slowly, i must cut off chips, must cut off ice cream, choclate.
den fried food.
might as well ask me go die.
ok should try very best to avoid eating outside food.

my addiction

because the boyfriend is very addicted to nicotine.
and i'm very addicted to ice cream and chocolate.
in order to strengten the determination for him to quit.
i hereby promise that i will never ever touch ice cream and chocolate ever.
if i manage to do so, i don't care, Ng Wil Liam you shall stop smoking again.
that's a really big sacrifaction ok. ask vern may wtf.

i'm really materialistic

so how. i'm so spoilt since young so how.
my dad bought me every barbie doll i wanted.
never failed.
dad u spoilt me.
but i know u were forced to. because i know how i had cried and stumped foot for it.
i really ashamed of myself.
but now i've changed.
because i am so irritated by my own behavior.
but i still get watever i want, even those that i din plan to own.
thank you so much dad i love you.
though it took so many years for me to be mature.
and i'm sorry i grown up so late.
thank you for providing all those luxuries.
i know there are alot of ppl who have more.
and i won't deny i have red eyes. but i already have more than others.
i can't complain anymore.
i love you dad.
and i love you too mom.
sory for those harsh time i've given you.
but i realized over these years our relationship has improved.
and i hope it won't go backwards.
i will still learn to grow.
with love from you.

i hope you will read this.
because it's impossible for me to tell you face to face.
i am used to being strong in front of u.
that's y i don't tell you alot of stuff.
i dun wan you to worry abt me.
i dun wanna show you my weak side.
i am your daughter, whom you never need to worry about.
except the money spending part la ha wtf.
but i'm really in dilemma.
i have my moment. and for a period of time i really feel lik giving up everyhting.
dat's y u see i'm so fat now, i'm a stress eater.
i duno la.
i feel so fan now bye.

my bad

ok so i haven been updating for sometimes... not like anyone cares la...
but i'm just pretending there are alot ppl out there dying to see me updating my blog wtf sigh.
ok so i have been very very very procastinating.
which is really bad sigh.
did pretty bad for 302... it's suppose to be an easy test wasn't it?
i tot i knew most of the answers wtf !
no luck maybe.... missed my acedemic performance during my early 11 years of education !
used to be really really good one...
guess god exchanged something for me...
when i was really fugly, HE gave me smart brain and good result...
when i fought for beuty... HE exchanged it with my good result edi wtf wtf wtf
am i really good at this kinda karma thing or wat
but nvm la..... enough to pass la.... ok.... if it's above average then good lo wtf
really wanna do it well one i'm serious.
this time i really study damn hard tho it's last minute again, but i feel how i concentrated i swear i changed wtf
guess i've been so emotionally aroused lately.
being in a relationship is seriously with pros and cons lo.
i wish i have realy healthy relationship la.
but since the begining i edi built up really bad habit.
i spoilt my boifriend i guess.
karma !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
being too tolerance.
being too sweet.
being too fake wtf.
regret edi. should i end this and go seek for another one.
u know habit is really hard to be changed right, so find another one den start over again
since i learned the lesson edi lor hor
i seriously dun feel happy when i see him or get his call already.
i need some respect. don't care if it's childish.
full stop.

addicted to typing !

hello, all of a sudden i'm addicted to typing !
i'm so lack of sleep yet yet yet still here updating my blog, during the time of the semester.
hoho i had abit of gin and i'm abit of the blur now, boohooo why am i such a lousy drinker !
literally abit lo...................... i think 5 ml only ? wtf ?
red lik red color wtf HAHAHHAAH
oh been doing charity lately wtf.....giving away cosmestic before they expired !!!!
so girls..... must use very often ok. !!! expensive one a !!!!!
since i never use it...... so give it to someone who does lo right.
but i damn pin sam one... only give to those i love lo ok.
actually i really damn kiam siap one...i won't cin cai give things to ppl...
unless those i love.
i think i grow up thinking that love or hate, must have a very obvious boundary.
i damn bias one lo seriously.
wa ! my whole body turn red no kidding !!!!!!! allergic ar ? dun ler......i love gin !!!!!!!!
hmmmmmmmm.... so har..... the other day my Beiber soh said she wanna save money eh, dun wanna spend on clothes edi !
ahhahahahhahahhahahahhaha i had the determination oso when i just came back from hk
but den now i have shopping urge edi
i need to shop for new bras..... panties ........ leggings !hohohoho.
shoes oso !!! am looking for killer heels !!!!!!! wtf wtf
how la lik dat huh.
damn broke edi ok.
sigh nvm buy vincci/nose. sigh. spotted a really nice heels at Nose, hope it's still there
the best if got sale wtf !!!! hahahahhahahahha
man ....... i really miss shopping in HK ...... sigh
but den no won't go there in a short while la.......... lik wat william said, use the air fare and hotel's money to shop in malaysia more worth it right.
got point !
but things in HK are nicerrrrrrrr how !!!!!!!! they do shipping anot ?
i love forever 21 websites !!!!!! omfg so pretty !!!!

oh ok ...... a total non related thing, i bought a mineral powder from some blog the other day
selling at dirt cheap pric, i never tested den quckly order scared out of stock wtf lik damn rich.
but den the color doens't suit me................. booohoooo tot wasted money edi one
but den the very kind blogger let me do exchange yeah ! when i was still happily thinking how lucky i was......... i noticed the expired date at the bottom of the powder box !
JANUARY of 2009 !!!
wtf ?
hey yo you see i got this powder only middle of september lo ok !
so now i can ask for ful refund ! but den blogger never reply the address
they said they were sorry that kinda thing, but den they also revealed that the supplier was some famous blogger (the one who like CHEESE very much and den funnily participated in some duno where dream girl contest one) so there is very lil they could do. sigh. rugi ler them.
but dun care jz give back my money so that i can buy bra wtf !
ok i damn blur edi bye bye.

back and tanned

HELLO EVERYONE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
deng deng deng ~
i'm back from HONG KONG
sigh, broke and contented.
u see everything is so pretty
everything is nice
everything is nowhere in KL u can find
and i bought so many things, never in my life i spent so much on shopping in a few days only.
WTF I'm SO sinfully happy !!!!!!
and den so many works awaiting. sian. blog abt wat i've bought if i feel lik it la.
but i think u all will be damn shocked so i think better don't wtf.
ok do resume wtf bye bye.

i have a confession to make

today...... is the day. i'm gonna reveal my darkest secret of all......
u all might hate me since this post onwards... but i dun care really.
i need someone to spank me on the face and tell me.... ENOUGH U BITCH.
i have been thinking to blog about this long ........ long time ago.

but i have no courage.

i'm scared.

i iz scareeedddd.

so it started lik this..................

4 years ago, when i have already finished my SPM and blurly went to Taylor's school of so many hot chicks and studied A level.
i inferior........
cz they all so pandai make up, dress up so nice. hair long long.

aww i like.

so i started so many things.

i started to get to know so many brands, i din even know LV dat time ok.

wat is LV ?! huh.... din know ~ damn innocent. hehehhe no la sua ku la....

din know roxy din know quick silver.

i think my best shirt is body gloove which is still cheap dat time, den the other brand is that u nv heard of.

and den i started up skin care. wa.... damn fatt hao.

and den .... later............. it's make up.

my 1st..... 1st make up is a concealer and a mascara dot com.

no more, cz my skin ar, damn perfect. mind u, i used DAMN PERFECT !!!!

so i din need foundation and all.

hehehehehhe i still using the concealer wei but mascara edi disposed long time ago

cz damn stupid, lsiten to pro saying, MASCARA MAXIMUM keep for 3 months !!

so used abit den disposed edi. sigh. u know dat time i edi know estee lauder mascara ok, damn expensive, i think 80 buskcs a. sigh. but now even more expensive !!!!! siao. so i planned to shift to maybeline. but duno y those brands blinded me, den i used dior, den anna sui's, KOSE oso... all very expensive, 90 and above ok. so u count la, how much i've spent on mascara. sigh.

ok ok then ................... the nightmare comes........

over these years, i NOW have 7 eyeliners

8 cheeks color

OVER 15 different shades of gloss and lipstick

24 eyeshadows color.

3 foundations.

2 loose powder

i really cannot count how much i've spend on em.

i sin.

bought all...and barely use em. sigh.

so now here comes good deal !!!!

- estee lauder color platte 6 eyes color and 2 cheek color
- estee lauder eye shadow platte, 8 pretty eye shadow color and 1 old cheek color (i dun lik it, nv use) plus one box with mirror dat allows u to bring 3 pairs of matched eye shadow whenever u want to !!!
- 1 estee lauder sweet pink lip stick

goods above are in extreme good condition (as new) used once ONLY !

that's not all !!! still got

- 4 estee lauder make up brush (blusher brish, 2 eye shadow brush, 1 lip brush) (WHOLE NEW)
- 1 laura mercier lip gloss (WHOLE NEW)
- 1 clarins cute pink cream blusher (used several times but still in good condition)

wa so many things hor
i bought all these on impulse wtf !!!!

and i'm selling for RM 150 only ok.............
i bought them for duno how much la, u can see how spoilt i am. eh very nice ler buy la wtf. 1st time selling stuff so weird and shy wtf !!!! eh ask ur friend to come and buy ok.
one set only.
one good deal only.
1st come 1st serve (lik so many ppl really want it wtf)
no bidding (lik edi got alot ppl fighting for it wtf)

yea........ so this is my darkest secret la.
i cannot forgive myself for spending money lik this. sorry mom i sin.

hola i'm sorry

wa !!! ok long time nv update edi. weird babe soh nv shouted update this time.
mayb she die heart edi wtf AHHAHAHHAHA
ok so how am i doing.
i'm sick. so rare ok. and i lost my voice !!! damn sexy, i talked alot ytd in college, HAHAHAHAHA so fun talking wit voice lik this. but faster recover la, i dun wan forever wit voice lik this ler. pls pls. thank u. and i cough till shit oso gonna drop out anytime lik dat.
damn san fu can.
i think i dun have much thing to update everyone.
cz my life damn boring one.
revolve around the boyfriend only.
OH OH i went one u myself the other day.
sigh, haven done so in ages lor, since i have the boifriend, too manja edi
yea i know someone (soh) would say i have no life edi
and i'm the one to be blamed afterall !!!!
eh i improved edi ok........ i dumped bf and den hor went hor to hor LANGKAWI wit u all ma right wtf. one time only wtf !! hahahahhahaha
ok la.............
this raya i'm gonna dump my 3 best buddies here and fly to hk edi.
hope they have fun yo.
and forget me not !!!!! when u happily chewing ur food rmb me ok.
ok dat's it !!!
wa....... no now only friday, so fast asking ppl to miss me edi. wtf !!!!!
ok la... in case i din update la ok.
-the end-

it feels so bad when u drank too much

ok so went Luna Bar in town with a whole bunch of people where 60% of them i duno.
farewell with the host whom i'm not really close with.
seriously talking, i met him at most 3 itmes but i'm amazed by the passion he has towards my boifriend wtf. so obviously i was there becoz my bf is invited la.
i drank so much that i tot i was out.
the feeling is so bad that i couldn't even possibly described through words
cz u see har, my english is very limited excess.
and i dun wanna learn DOWNYANG plagarised other ppl's stuff
and i'm so sick of the citation yo wtf.
enough said, i was too sick until the boyfriend removed make up for me hahahahahhahaha
so memalukan i'm not a good drinker arhhh......
and my pee stinks !!! yucks.
pictures later if i feel like it wtf. so sian.

i'm back with something

hey i confirm going to HK already yay/no yay.
duno happy anot, cz following william's family.... lik so awkward. ppl family trip and i alwyas tag along.... den cannot simply kiss when i feel lik kissing him, sigh cannot simply throw tantrum cz later the parents tot i really bully their son how? i alone one ler, they all have power of the whole Ng family lor. hehehehe.
those company really pandai, hike up price during super peak season hor.
one freaking 5D4N stay cost 2300 bucks sigh i wanna faint.
i really dun wanna go.
becoz if i wanna pay for the trip, it's so not worth it, if i no need to pay, i damn pai seh.
i'm not showing off la, but the bf insisted i should follow, the way he said was lik i'm not an outsider so i dun hav to worry abt all those unecessaries.
sigh.... he is being insensitive la.
he is nv in my shoes so he wouldn't unerstand i guess.
but i really appreciate him talking like dat, cz makes me feel very warmth. but he could nv understand wat others think of me, in his eyes, even if i farted and stink lik shit, he wouldn't tell others and laugh at me.
he said he would sponsor me everything. i dun hav to spend a single cent.
his company sponsor my travel fare, and he sponsors my shopping.
.............. how can u not melt u tell me.
he is the bestest !!!
BUT how can u spend money from someone so good lik dat ?
u see har, if u spend someone's money other than mom's it's weird.
lik kek kek dei..... dare not to buy so much.
so pretty but over price dare not say want......
sigh ...... i duno
i appreciate his offer la really... but ...
sigh nvm ...
duno a.......................... talk lik dat lik showing off
den would get respond lik, offer to u ma good la, still wan complain wat oso duno wtf
the feeling i'm trying to say is lik ......... pai seh.... but proud la... i duno too complicated i guess
aiya nvm la.

eh i wan oso !!!

list 10 sweet things ma right ?!
1. errrrrrrrrrrrr....... bought me flower when 1st time celebrating my birthday (died 5 days later) gave me the watch that he likes (he thinks it's pretty)
2. ermmm ...................................... brought me to korea. cz company got free trip. better than nth ma i know i know hehehehehhehe.
3. hold my hand, insisted to hold me in his arm when movie super sweet, but make me have sore neck.
4. i cried when movie has touching scene. he wiped away my tear, and the mascara !!!!
5. hurt me while playing, sometimes v wrestling.
6. banged my braces
7. bring me to badminton and then play with other ppl
8. i sick he went snooker with his friends after i pretended to be asleep.
9. obey every single words the mother said
e.g. belle said " we should buy a house",
william silent, "hmmmm...."
mom said" you should buy a house for future",
william then told belle "we should plan to buy a house"
........ belle ponder, whether should cheer in tear or simply cry.

10. nv smoke in front of his parents/family members. wiling to reveal true self in front of me.

did it sounds more lik 10 sour things ?
huh...... i tried so hard but cannot think of any sweet thing now wtf ?!
how man i panic edi eh !!!!!!
ok ok update later if i think of anything.

patched back

as you can see the pretty gf appeared.

hehehehehhehehhe so u know wat happen eh.

the problem was, she was busy, nobody expected her to be there, but duno who insisted she must be there. so, everybody waited her for sometime.

and the best part is, when she came, it was lik she doesn't know everyone.

she made the "zhu gok" waited her, but no apology.


she is best at when someone has already told her wat should she do, and she called another person. asking exactly the same thing, and claim she doesn't know anyting abt dat.

to me. super wtf.

ok anyway, happy birthday ck.

HELLO everyone !!!

been a few days since i last blogged ?
din do much thing, and then holiday just ended lik that.
great lo.
wasted my young life.
sigh, hopefuly when i grow older, i won't slap myself and regret for the way i wasted my young life lo. went pd for holiday and hurt my righty foot when playing futsal with the males.
sigh y is my life so sad. hahahahha but the game was fun la, my 1st attempt for soccer and i goal twice wtf ?! hahhahhaha so pandai can
ok so i'm trying to evolve my blog la, at least i uploaded the 1st ever picture right.
sigh but i'm a low low low tech person, i duno how to edit the layout and all, tried once for the stoopid multiply and it looks lik shit now, worse than the original one ok damn kesian.
ok 310 and 312 i damn scared ok.
sigh ....... pls pls pls lemme pass.
D i oso dun mind already please.

juicy is such disappointment.

looks so pretty here but then actually.................

so ugly one.
selling on9 for US$ 178 and then it's actually RM2 K in the store wtf ?!
eat urself.
no...... it's actually nice. but den so expensive ohw to buy wtf !!!!!!!!!!!

why do i love my boifriend wtf

i'm sorry if it bothers you, whoever reading this hehehehe.
ok so ppl around me knows my boifriend is the ultimate william.
he is by far the best man i've ever met in life. except smoking and hyper active outings la ha :P
so i will cut the bushes and not mentioning how v met and then fall in love that kinda thing la
in these days and months and years that we have been together, he always try to entertain me even if my behavior/words threaten his superb man ego.
he tolarates at his best with me.
he let me humiliate him and return me with warm hugs and kisses because he simply knows i din mean it.
he encourages me although he doesn't know which is the best word to use. even he only knows to tell me nvm you have already tried your best.
he would da bao BR for me when i'm burning mid night oils and throw tantrum at him, becasue he knows i need something to cool me down inside.
he would hug me with joys and hold me with shaking hands when i gave him surprises :)
he would never refuse to bring me anywhere i wanted to go.
he would bring me to eat food i crave, even it's sushi for 3 days at a roll.
he said when i sucessfully lose weight, with slim arms and all, he would buy me BCBG dresses.... each piece cost above 1K ok. sigh, where on earth can i find a bf like this ?
each lil things he has done for me, i kept in heart.
there are of course so many more that i could not possibly completely include
there are so many reasons for me to love him .... but only 2 for me to get angry at him.
sigh, ok this post is for me to remind myself whenever i get angry at him ok.

sigh i love my boifriend wtf.

my boifriend is so cute sigh.

how can i not in love with him you tell me huh wtf hahahahhaha

that missy tiffernie sorh should be on her way to Bali edi.... wonderful journey, wish u have one there hoho. meet hot beach boys there k. oh mayb hot rich boys wtf.

ok update when i want to again. muuah ~

i love my boifriend wtf.

all about myself

hehehehhehe... been so bored, so thinking to talk about something quite private.
...... my right armpit always gets itchy easily i don't know y.
i'm craving for korean fried rice cake and sushi and soba these days.
yea basically i'm a monster who eat 12/h a day wtf


yeah i'm a happy woman !!!
because, the sun is bright today :)
phasionollgy has live views damn professional summore wtf !!! michelle is the bomb !!!
or may it's eugene ???? my god, thy make the perfect couple !!!!
i'm a happy woman, simply because i am so contented !

being yourself

is the hardest thing to do. because, it might makes ppl hate you, gossiping abt you and etc.
being ownself, is the most selfish thing one could ever do, i think.
selfish is human instict i think.
is it only me that being a pessimistic about human being and have no hopes upon them, even to myself ?
when you expose urself truely to someone, do they appreciate you being honest, or they would only focus on the ugly side you've shown ?
and that's the hardest thing on earth when dealing with people.
because they simply don't think like you do.
so, nvm :) why bother ?
just being sweet and they whole world would like you.
just being weak and the world would protect you.
just being quiet and people would not have anything to talk abt you.
so why bother being yourself ?
it's something that makes you look ugly.
oh well... mayb just after a while of pretending, you manage to convinve yourself that u r one person like that?
then it's not pretending anymore?
wtf i think i chi sin edi.
hmm ....... yeah, just start with laughing with hand covering mouth wtf.


so all the while, i'm not that type of person who would blog abt what i've been through the whole day etc etc etc.
e.g. OH today i went shopping with tha boifriend, and we held hands lor, then we sweet sweet lo, then suddenly OH MY GOD the prettiest pieve of top juz popep in front of me, i was giddy of the beautiful design and you just won't believe how well it fitted on me wtf.
ohhhh.... i need to save money, so i told tha boyfriend, no i was not suppose to buy it, then my boyfriend hor, so sweet insisted i should buy, so i was convinced, at the cashier there hor, he took out his wallet and flipped out his credit card, OH MY GOD, it's a black card wtf. but i said i had to pay myself, but he just didn't let me.
aww i have the best boifriend in the whole wide world.

this is enough for me to slap myself edi.
i'm so freaking siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
i should just go kill myself.
ok so i hav been thinking why ar i don't blog about all these, mayb i think it's not memorable ? oh on a second thought, no i don't think so.
mayb i just duno how to blog abt this thing, and sometimes i might have trigger different response from dfferent ppl, they may think i'm solely showing off if i blog abt my shopping day wtf. or others might think i'm a pathetic spoiled slut who only live for shopping.
ok ok i admit, i just don't have something special to blog abt.
my life is not happening at all :(
i've wasted good 2 months doing nth. mayb i'm afraid to face whatever that i should go and deal with it. sigh. i'm a coward. bastard.

a thick skin post.

ok la i'm ASSUMING the one you talked abt is me ok hehe.
1st wai wat point, i dun rmb when do/did i ever treated you as a joker.
and that hurt me too. i've always be sincere to you, be real to you.
and for that you claimed that i treated you as a joker.
i have not treated you right ?
yeap, so i freaking scare of the dog, but still screaming yelling but go in that door for wat ?
i don't understand also.
everyone has their bad sides one ma, not like everyone is perfect also. so if i can stand you but you cannot, den aiyooo ... ur lost wtf hahahahah. ok ok sorry, serious cannot hahaha one.
So, did my "hahahahha" make ppl feel like i treated them a joker ?
sigh .... duno ler, nv listed what have i done also, mayb i perasan.
for so many times when there is unhappy thing happened, duno who was the one who took the 1st step, took the courage to talk abt the things. for wat i've rmb, majority it was I la ha, if i din rmb wrongly wtf. from the friendster LONG LONG msg, to face to face apologies...
at least i apologised ma... hor, sincerely one. at least i din pretend lik nth happen but den secretly angry and acted cool wtf.
at least i din hide. i think u're not right den i say la. den if i think i wrong i apologise la.
but den again, yea, everyone has different characteristic lo, mayb it's not you to apologise to ppl.
right right. but den when i apologise with "hahahha" doesn't mean i treated you as joker ma
i got ego also one, but den i have to surpressed it, so i use "hahahha" to ease my gan zeong-ness lor.
all the while i think, i'm older, i should take care of you, i don't know y also, but you r one smart girl, there is nth much for me to worry abt u.
i don't know lor, but after all the days that we have known each other, how i have treated you, good and bad, and den now u said u pretend to be listening to me. that's the hardest thing i've heard. just like if william said "i don't love you anymore" wtf !!! wanna cry edi.
hmmm, if you feel lik that den just forget abt it la.
let's just be friends lor.
it's ok, bearing ppl's secret is difficult also. it's ok for you to let it to someone else :)
knowing me 3 years, u know i fucking hate ppl pretending in front of me.
i don't wanna hate you. so you don't have to pretend that you're listening.
you take one step back.
i won't force you one.
ok la, conclusion is.
i can never be good friends with female izit ? wtf. ok so girls out there, say hi to me and i will say bye to you ok ?

ok, looking at this whole case from another point of view (childishly):
i just jokingly ask you to take cab den you angry and dun wan friend me edi la
den it's true ma, date vm got car, date me don't have, i nv lie also wtf.
so now u got car den dun wan me edi la wtf.
oh oh, den i edi told u i'm ok, sincerely offer to send u
u don't wan, den acted damn cool also (as in not lik ur usual way la)
not lik i'm gonna beg you to get in my car ma right ? or u really want it wtf?
erm.... ok la sorry, i abit confused wit myself edi.

eh eh ok, so if it's not me, den i replyon behalf of your friend la wtf
eh ok ok i'm not suppose to hahaha.
eh, sincere post.
it's 1.46 am now ok.
yea........ so y did i post it here a?
oh yea, scare u fall aslept edi, u know u will still answer phone even u're asleep, and den let ppl disturb u one. dun wan la i pai seh.
den, err... i think i dun feel lik talking to you face to face la abt this matter.
mayb it will be easier for you. to talk all things out.
oh ok, this post i damn careful wtf. 1st time double checked wat i wrote.
ok ok 2 am edi !!! yawn ~~

hello bloggie

sigh, dear blog, your existance is so insignificant.
so uninteresting.
so boring.

it's 4 am !!!! i can't beleive i can stay awake longer during holidays.
sigh, y i do not have this kinda stamina when i was suppose to burn for the exams huh y oh y ar
i'm sucha failure ok.
ok talking abt me, i'm a sucker. total sucker, i think i will never do what i have planned. or wanted to.
eg. yea part time job for this blerdy long holidays.
i spent time playing wii, online for nothing, eating like food is free, and then i duno. probably day dreaming unconciously.

ok, so i'm a sucker.
i can't sleep, i have nothing to do.
my life is so boring until suspected depression wtf. aww !!!!! so sad wei belle.
i'm noting this down, so for the next 10 years i can see if still pathetic or not.
ok i'm running out of the points now, wat am i saying again ?
i duno !!!
i'm crapping !!!!!!!!! ok this is gonna be a rubbish post.
well ..... right, erm.... ok phasionology seems to do well now. from the purchasers' point of view, our clothes are safe, nth too trendy too weird, just nice. hehehehhheheh. it's so funny it's like v r shopping for ourselves whenever v restock. fun !! shop and buy den others pay you back, with extra tips whahahhaha muacks, love you ppl ! visit more ok
duno how to do the link but: phasionology.blogspot.com

Michelle is the bomb baby !!!!! she is by far the most artistic person i've ever met.
literally artistic and PRODUCE beautiful stuffs, not like forcing ppl to say their thing nice dat kinda geng you know.....
oh there is something i wanna blog about, rmb cindy the MDG, i used to like hate her so much becz i think she was like damn fake and xiao jie. like someone i know.
but den after i read her blog, well, i think i begin to change my mind, hmmm duno if it's being convinced or wat la...
everyone sure has their bitchy side, evil side. agree.
it just depends on how you wanna reveal it, whom you wanna kena.
and the capacity of ablity to be bombarded by all the comments from ppl around.
both that you know and you don't know.
all the while i think i'm brave enough to voice out wat i think, but guess it's not like that afterall.
in this blerdy real world, you would have to conceal your words ..........
and being 2 faces.
if that makes everyone happy, y not ?
i don't know.... i'm really shocked at what i think sometimes.
life is so difficult.
dealing with ppl .... the hardest maybe ?
oh no, mayb it's raising the child wtf.
that would be another topic to talk abt.

for now, i really hate kids.
like a lot.
they are. freaking. annoying.
the end.
oh ok not yet, and then i start to ponder, am i the bad person afterall, i stand for wat i think it's right, and stand up for ppl whom i think they are right, voice out for them, but in the end, others would think i'm mainly responsible for it, because i voiced wtf.
and when ppl started blaming, those that i stand for suddenly become neutral.
then i'm all alone, like i were the only one being furious from the beginning.
so, y being stupid.
just shut the fuck up and be a puppy belle, puppy is no harmful, go wit watery eyes, so even if you bite some John Stuarts shoes they won't ask for compensation also.
because, puppy is no harmful.
not purposely one, just teeth itchy. nth. puppy ma adorable fuck.
wa y suddenly i'm so aggressive.
ok i should not, i'm a puppy.
say no evil !!! *no evil*

i am beautiful

i wish.

fuhlamak !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! y is my holiday lik this one.
make me feel so freaking feel lik a piece of shit. useless. worthless.
y am i so negative lik this.
i am becoming so random.
and i'm so worry that this might interfere with my acedemic performance already

SO how does this this theory apply
oh then maybe i would answer by saying that "when i've become more beautiful then i will have answer to this"
ok now i don't know how did i get to this point.

i'm so bored.
boifriend's sick
den i have no life already ?! WTF Y AM I SO SAD
i think i sort of have the idea of y am i behaving lis this
i'm so traditional, i am so lik my mom
u see, when my mom married to my Mr. Chia and become Mrs.Chia at the most beautiful age of 21 oh wait mayb only 20 because it hadn't passed her birthday yet
she stopped working and then hav to stay home and become a housewife awwwww
and den she had babies
so her whole life is juz lik dat
besides her father, her 2 brothers, her son, and den now william
i think she hasn't been really interact with other guys
wtf mom i'm sorry did i make you sound gay
oh yea mayb some random men in market when she needs to buy things from them wtf

so i've restricted myself
and my situation is becoming worse
when you scoped down your friends circle
your scope is narrowed
and then you tend to think like a woman which is so bad to an undescripted stage.
i don't think i rely much on my bf
but i jz let him take control of everything
watever it is, i'm responsible to all of it !!!!!!!!!!
awww .... i'm sucha failure, but i can't help it

it's juz lik, when the bf sick, i would think it's so bad if i still hang out with friends or somethign
and it's nearly impossible to go out wit other guys
because den it's not loyal to him WTF AHAHAHAHAHAHHA i should be hung to death !!!!!!
Y AM I SO OLD FASHION LIKE AN AH MA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok i shall not continue ashame myself here
i think afterall i'm juz lazy to ask somone out.

ok tmr is the day !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
waited for one good week

i'm so sian

so fucking sian that i wanna throw tantrum at everyone

i should get a part time job.

a note for my special someone: i feel lik i've spend my half life waiting for you.
and you spend your whole life having fun like a kid.

why am i becoming so shallow and vulgar.... hate to admit, but yea more stupid too

it's all chaos out there, advise is not to go KL
block and jamming everywhere
because of the politics scaldals
Malaysia, is a blessed country, free of almost all kind of natural disaster despite the unfortune tsunami and all.
but why the politicans wanna make things so ugly
and fuck them all they said just so don't make sense at all
i'm not specifying anyone unless you wanna admit and yea HANDCUFF ME fuck you
so annoying lor.
stop playing with the anal game la.
even if he did so wat !
you scare he will play your backside so catch him b4 he does izit wtf damn annoying

there were so many break in cases happen in my neighbourhood
broke into the house and stole good car at dark night.
it's locked gates mind u.
damn scary ok.
only few houses away from mine. scared.
and you don't wanna knoe how near the police station is
less than one minute drive.
you have something better to do


it's so difficult
i duno wat are we waiting for
everyone is so busy
and it seems like none can work when not all ppl are here
mayb i'm not used to waiting

everyone has different thinking
different priority
different characteristic
haven started, but i'm getting less and less passionate already
might be tired of waiting i don't know.
hope things will get better when everyone gets involve.

life crisis

i'm having a crisis in life.
it's so bad that i feel likei 'm gonna die.

and i want to die.


hello, this entry is here because i'm inspired by my beiber's latest entry abt friendship
i think my reply will be too long to fir the chat box so i just reply through writing a new blog entry here lo hehe

interpersonal relationship is always so complicated and it's really hard that some ppl might not master it in their entire life
some ppl are so cheapo that they don't have any friends at al.
it actually depends how you look at things
sometimes when you really are too busy until you din get to contact with some friends, it's really forgivable that they didn't ask u at the 1st place
2 possibilities
- they thought of you, but thinking you might be busy so just don't wanna make the afford
- they really forgot about you because they have been a big gang and u joined someway at the middle, for once, you all always hang out lik siaos, but then when for one time when u're busy they become the original gang again.

there are always some external factor that we are not in control.
i think.
friends, we don't need alot.
we only need some that really love us. really care of us.
but when you have such friends, don't too fussy about who take the initiative to contact who, or who would care about who 1st or stuffs like that.
if you do that, i'm sorry but u'll feel lonely forever. i think. hahah.
you must have to believe that, when you show that u're in some trouble, or u tell them
they will always... always be there for u.
everyone has their own business to be taken care of

sometimes being friends just cannot be too calculative.
and learn to accept and let go.
but some attitute that we cannot tolerate, we give up.
when they don't even care to make any afford to safe the friendship, we watch it dies.
but it's always easier to say than done.
friends, are memang a complicated issue to deal with.

wtf make me emo oso
wanted to chill ppl somemore wtf

fucking act cute

i fucking cannot stand ppl acting cute lor.

YEW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the world changed !!!

what are those young ppl thinking now arh ?! god i should use my fertility wisely.


for so long so long that i wanted to dedicate a post to you
but i shy
it's very reluctant for me to tell ppl how i get started with my bf
becoz somehow i feel sorry to you
... it's like... i've taken something from you, i beleive that was what ppl thought as well, and so do you. though you have never disclosed to me, but i know how much you hated me
but i can't ... i can't hide my curiousity abt you
in my eyes you are pretty
in my ears, you are a bitch
in my mind, i feel bad abt u
in my heart, i am so jealous of u
i know in his heart u can't even compete wit me bcoz u know y
and i dun wanna mentioned what u did to him
it's so funny when i read from your blog that how u nv intended to hurt anyone lik dat
lik what u said, big fat wat wat story tale lie (wa u memang lik to show off ur english)
u're definitely a person full of lies.
i do not like you. because i'm so jealousy lik that.

and yea i'm so idiotic to post up something like this.
but i cannot keep this in my heart.
i blame this all on the exam stess.

i'm a god damned procastinator

and i hate myself for being one lik dat.


man oh man, i can be a real good stalker ain't i
i don't know if ppl around me realise this crazy thing abt me
but i'm so obsessed with pretty things... including people. yes people.
when i spotted pretty person, i would really look straight to them, spot them whenever i think thye have chances to be there and so...
and i would really admire them... huhuhu... damn stoopid yeap.
but i can't help it.
u see, i said i chase after the ultimate beauty. i love to see pretty thing coz i couldn't see it in me.
..... PATHETIC LA yeayeayea......

i don't think i could get rid of this crazy bit of mine in a short while, if not forever hehe
i have damn skin now, y the jits just couldn't get lost already !!!!!
grrrrr damn irritating, they have been with me for over 2 years u see.... 2 years ok.
i have enough !!!!!!!!!!!!! get off !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn sad looking at my face
sian already when ppl around keep asking wat happned to ur face, ur skin used to be so nice wan... huhuhu... yea stop digging my pain, i duno wat happened too. thanks for ur concerns
low self esteem
i feel lik i have nth now... i mean in me la
u see, gained weight, i think i'm becoming a 60 kg monster wtf !!!!!
and yes the damn face
and where is the brain. ppl who failed the mid term shit, bad bad feeling bad feeling pls dun fail me for the grade pls.... pls... nv feel so worry b4, cz i don't wanna take the same subject and go through the same damn torture again pls
oh yea tmr final wat am i doing here i duno wtf

hmm ... yea i think i'm PMS-ing...
is dat y i got into constant fight with the boifriend ?
poor thing, i'm so sorry ... i know u're not reading this, but i'm sorry i feel so bad for u lar dump me pls. no i'm kidding.
ok i think i'm having pre-exam stress
pre-exam stress plus pms plus pissing about the skin problem and den worry abot the weight
........ god am i gonna die soon ? i can't take dat much burden

wtf me... ok i'm being so pointless
some good thing...
my college babes are the ones i should really appreciate... they r so cute
and i really really hope they would still be the same after ten years
i don't wan it to be lik 2 years later when they contact me again
"Belle, interested in buying insur?" .............. ARH annoying...
dat might happen, cz someone else did dat already, direct sale, wanted to earn quick money eh.
hopefully they could succeed la... but too bad i'm not supporting.

sigh there are just alot of things i feel lik talking suddenly...
but i can't, gotta go back to do the damn revision.
good luck everyone.
hugs ~


i have very low sense of security feeling.
sometimes i would feel that the conenction is not there with my close ones.......
i only need.... someone who would make me feel that i'm so precious and important to them

and now i'm all alone again
i can only blame noone but myself for that.

hello here i am again

ok not sure what to blog about, juz stuck with my work and try to release some stress by typing here as in i'm doing work also.

ok random thing: the boifriend started with facebook, yeap, after so long like it's gonna outdated already hoho. and then he has a fluff friend, cow, named after FAT FAT wtf, damn cute ok my boifriend. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ... miss him already :(
sigh now tonight and tmr will be the toughest moment, assignment due b4 12 and presentation at 10, meeting at 8. how can i finish them u tell me i duno !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok bye bye cis.

memorable !

actually i don't know what do i have atitle for my everyt blog entry.
as u can see, everytime when i blog till half way, what am i gonna talk about is llike differed so far away from the topic already.
but nuff said !
TODAY, THE SUNDAY, THE 29th of JUNE 2008 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
beibeh picked me up and v went makan together !

awwwwwwwwwwwwwww ~ i love her :)

my English my college my lecturer

is so bad until it interferes with my ability to understand what ppl were saying.

....... so bad ! omg, i swear i'm gonna so improve my english.
............... no la i mean i will try ... hehe

i'm so gonna blog about this so that i would still rmb this red-hair after 20 years, he probably won't be in this world anymore... Dr. FULTON ~~
fuiyo this professor of mine, damn geng. i don't know, but he is the 1st western lecturer that v have in 3 years of studying in HELP. he just couldn't suit in our acedemic system... and making sucha big fuss abt it... he is damn cool, talking lik a kid, i was so fascinated when babe said how he blamed on the timing of meeting him the other day... seriously, hiding behind the culture difference is much more better than the BAD TIMING ok...
lik so wtf
conversation went like this

"But sir, when v discussed with you the other day, you said it was alright"
"when did v meet?"
"last friday"
"oh.... friday what time?"
"11.30 (p.m), sir"

.............................................................. "oh, that was a bad time."

W T F !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u damn cool ok.
i have a really bad feeling about this semester
i'm so gonna fail the 2 subjects with Fulton.
i'm so F' screwed !!!! cannot graduate edi la lik dat !!!!!
always sit home wait parents feed mer !!!!!!
my daddy and mommy sayang me lik princess ok.... i really want them to feel lik king and queen....

too shy to tell them in real life..........

hehehe... dad and mom... i love u. muackz, muackz.

been staying in college till so late recently, a pretty good experience, walking from block E to mainblock, cz no more free bus haha
friends like 'em are so nice .......................
i like being with them.

random: angel r so angel !!!!!!!!!!!!! i like !! hahahahahahahhahahahah wtf belle u wtf !

i don't understand

stress stress stress and stress
tha't all i can describe about my life now
3rd year of studying is definitely not easy to me.
why am i here, i'm suppose to be doing the gok dam assignment, comparing the APA codes and APS codes of ethics.
i'm suppose to know 'em so well that i could sue the stupid authority someday izit.
i'm so exhausted
the more i study i more i blame on my stupidity
i'm becoming so stupid that i don't understand what i'm suppose to do
i don't understand what am i studying.
Dr. Fulton, i will defitely remember you. because i made me feel lik i have been truly studying on my own ~ is that the culture you're from ? you solely blame all your unprepareness to... not your area of expertise ? well then you can just don't accpet the job at the 1st place if you think it is not your area of expertise don't cha ?!
it's so funny cause you talk lik a 15 years old boy.
you are making everyone walking around the bush and back to the origin.
but thank gok, i have great members. they are so helpful and smart.
i'm stupid ? nvm ! i have 'em to help me and of course that motivates me even more to try my very best and work up to their expectation.
but one thing working with smart ppl is not easy becaue i feel inferior so easily.
i hate myself. cis.
i think i would make a good stalker, been stalking someone for long.
which make me hate myself even more.
Belle, look wider. further. wiser.

it is so embarrassing that i broke into tears in college ytd. *KIMCHI !!*
and i shall remember what they said to me.
anything happen, they will be there.

makes me wanna cry even more.
i love 'em.
and my boifriend.
y am i so weak. cis.

ok back to work byebye.

my ultimate goal

my ultimate goal is to become slim and to look pretty
just in case you don't know, i am definitely not a born beauty.
i was fugly back in primary school until form 3.
why ?
because my BMI was blardy high, 30 maybe ? i don't know. heheh.
it's so fat until the big bros will bully me, friends will ostritcize me, parents will ask me not to eat so much anymore. wtf... damn cruel. hahaha.
but that's life.
don't judge book from it's cover ?
beauty is not important ?
no, they are so not true, people wouldn't wanna beleive that an angelic looking girl is a biatch
but when they see a girl with ugly face and is a biatch, they would hate her more easily.
too cruel to be true.
makes me so emo because reminds me of the past wtf hahahaha
and what have i been working to approach my ultimate goal ?
constantly eating !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm a serious stress eater, i need counseling !!!

ok no mood bye bye cis.

omg i duno how

met up with Joe and Gil the sweet couple today after tut.
sigh, so sweet la looking how they interact with each other, reminds me of how the boifriend and i used to be. sigh i missed those PDA times..... now it's lik a plain, tasteless couple edi
so sad la ...

talking with them is so inspiring... how the relationship should go...
everyone has different expectation when they are involve in a relationship right.
it's so difficult to just find a soulmate that could fulfilled everything that you would look for in a person.
so hard. so difficult.
read through a few blogs... wa the language they used is like so geng !
cannot... must update myself edi.
with the voucher i won from poster defense, (Jan 2008, 303 REBT). gonna buy a fiction and read lik mad !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
spend less time on9 and just read !
sigh .......................... belle...... it's time to upgrade yourself and downgrade your weight already

thank you bye bye. cis.


i'm always in love hate relationship wit myself, seriously.
why so ?
i love my life because it is surrounded with so many lovely ppl !!!
they really love me unconditionally !!!
they still stay with me despite my super hot temper and sudden mood-less stage !!!
and they have been spending alot alot alot alot of $$$ on me, which make me feel so hang fuk but at the same time very guilty.
that's why i am so determined to work during my 6 weeks holiday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i duno... i jz feel lik earning abit to cover up my expenses.
sigh you have no idead how much i've spent over the half year....
siao i tell u
siao !!!!!!!!!
i'm spending lik i were a millionaire !!!!!!!!!! which is an extremely BAD BAD THING
bad belle
bad !!!!!!!!!

so that's how i started to hate myself u see
i'm constantly lazy and self concious !
assignments ? bah !
mid term ? no fuck
.................................. i'm so chilling ! which is another exterme bad bad thing !!!!!

i duno... i guess for now, all i can do is to pray ! pray really really hard that i have luck to pass all the tests with flying colors !
ok ?!
pls ?!

please please pretty please hu huh uhu huh u

the end cis.


holiday blues holiday blues holiday blue !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg i'm so freaking bored and i am feeling extremely guilty
becoz i'm suppose to finish my thesis by now but den i actually haven really started ... it's jz alot of paragraph which haven been compiled and arranged properly T.T
y am i so freaking lazy i duno !!!!!!! arh ! i hate myself hate psychology hate everything besides my boifriend and friends and clothes and cash and food .............

huuuuu .... sorry, luckily i have none reader yet.
i'm so frustrated so have to let out abit of frustration here.
sigh sometimes i do think dat i'm the one who mess up my own life.
no one to blame, and i constantly feel lik giving up in studying, which i beleive my mom will kill me and slaughter me !!!!!!!!!!!!

wuwuwuwuwwuuu.... seriuosly feel lik banging head to the wall and jz faint lik dat, den the fairy pity me so grant me a wish......... den i would say i wanna be pretty and slim forever
wtf i am so shallow lik dat one la i duno y.

well ok ok think properly, wat do i want in life ?
my mom always says dat, be a girl/woman, most important thing in life is to marry to a good man ( @&(#(@*(#@&#(*@ i know damn sexist)
if u married to a useless man, den u're gone lik dat liao. (yor y la my lappie so damn lag)
so that's the point, i'm conditioned and being educated since young dat i need to find a good husband. and my mom only started to told me dat female is better to have their own career and dun rely on man too much, but huhuhu dat's already too late. sigh, wat to do i'm so farking lazy and i have a super good bf. i'm so spoilt !!!!!!!

ok ok ok .... enough said, thesis on !!!!

MDG sucks big time

sigh... the only thing that attracts me to keep on watch every last part of each episode is to see who got voted out !
MODEL SEARCH ? dun post it on the internet la cz u know ppl from out there could watch it as well... dun ashame Mas ok. this is not a model search ok !!!!
it's jz trying to copy some famous tv show lik american idol and all ok. and it's not FAIR at all
i wish my dad is as rich la, so that i could also win the MDG and a car lik Cindy does lo (oh not lik she's gonna win right, it's jz top 3, choi choi choi)
arh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cannot stand this show anymore !
i'm gonna stop watching edi.
i duno if she's a model material ok
even Jay got sent home ?! like... HELLO ?!
she is the only one qualified ok. Adeline is not bad but she doesn't know how to look good in front of camera so that sucks another big time.
i'm so geram la
cz i personally know someone lik Cindy
so i really dun like dun like dun like dun like someone lik dat !!!!!!
mayb i'm too conservative
the one who is trying to hint that she's a virgin (save the sex for marriage)
would stay in a hotel suite wit ONLY ONE DOUBLE BED ROOM
WIT A GUY FRIENDS ? and holding him sticking him leaning on him lik he is a bf and den afterwards told the whole wide world that HE IS NOT MY BF
.... which made things even worse
not slutty mer lik dat ?
hey i used to be really good in flirting around one, i oso think this is way too much
oh most probably i nv think of this tactic la, wtf i'm a loser ! BOO

MDG, waste of time. dun vote la, waste money only.

sigh i dun wanna be a bitch, but i'm born lik that.

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