Hi, With refer to the tittle above, i'm writing in to bla bla bla bla.
so this is basically what i do everyday.
HR is seriously a pain in the ass. BORING.
and especially difficult for careless ppl lik me T______T
made MINOR, seriuosly minor mistake everyday.
Let ppl scolded almost everyday.
i'm so doomed !!! wtf. it's double sin when your manager is female and tend to be very emotional.
wanted to look into another kind of job next time.
marketing perhaps.
but presentation is not easy too. gosh.
seriously, the longer i live, i stupider i've become.
the lessons i've learned is do not judge from the cover of books.
i picked the pretty office but it's rotten inside.
SIGH. y oh y oh. god u doesn't love me ?!
i've tasted so many dead cats.
seriously hard for ppl lik me.
cz i fought back 100%, but here in office, i can't.
omg.
omfg.
actually i lik working.
because u get paid and and u're financially independent.
wat i dun lik is, i got REALLY lazy when i got home.
i dozed off twice without brushing teeth wei wtf.
slept at 8 and then woke up at 12 to brush teeth and den went back to sleep till next morning !
wat kind of life is this ?
and my room is uber dirty.
super canot tahan.
urgh !!!!
miss the girls.
Vern May if u're reading this.
i think 4 of us will only reunite when u come back from UK wtf.
take care everyone.
rmb my name is Belle ok. wtf.
Today
Posted in on 3:28 AM by Belle
today i wake up feeling very lonely.
today i think that life is short why be fat.
today i know i have been judging too much.
today i am nothing and useless as i've always been.
today i think that life is short why be fat.
today i know i have been judging too much.
today i am nothing and useless as i've always been.
revealing
Posted in on 10:03 PM by Belle
i don't know how to give an appropriate tittle.
but today i'm going to talk about girls stuff, camwhore stuff, ineer stuff wtf. so many stuffs.
since the finding of friendster, it has been a heat thing to upload camwhore picture on the internet and so called sharing with friends, actually it's more than the public.
i think girls are scary creature. i seriously think alot of girls are scary tho they appeared to be harmless and sweet and cute and charming u know. but deep down inside, there were so many things running through their heads. u wouldn't know what they are thinking, or what's the intention behind.
this kind of girls appear everywhere, they were so many until ppl like me, with very small/narrow social network got the opportunity to meet with not one, but a few WTF.
i think it's pretty scary when some girls thought they are, really pretty wtf.
and then they think the whole wide world should go like what they wanted to be jz becz they think they are pretty wtf.
ok it's abit vague, lemme explain with examples la, easier to understand...
hmmm, ok like i'm a demanding girlfriend, becz my bf would jz love me and SHOULD buy me everything becz i'm pretty. something lik that la, it might be a shallow example but wat the heck can't think of any better example.
oh i'm quite impressed by those gfs who suck their bfs' money dry and den do not contribute.
sigh.
i hope i do not sound like a hypocrite, becz i admit that i spend quite alot of my bf's money especially on food hoho. but u see i contribute too.
it's like we 4 times we eat out there, i would pay for 1 of the meal.
and ar i would pay for the meal if it was me who brag him to being me there.
sound not fair right. but considering he gets 2K a month, and i only have........... 500 WTF.
and he never need to save when buying pressie to me, hence no advance planning.
me ? i need to squeez brian juice to think of things the need and want, and SAVE money from long long time ago.
i always start saving since november until his birthday in March wtf.
but it's all worth it la. i like his exciting look everytime he gets the surprise.
so now i hope this doesn't sound like a self-defense
ok now i don't know why i suddenly drag to this gf bf issue WTF !!!!!
my main point was suppose to be girls who like to camwhore with their cleavage or very sexual promt pose.
haih. but it can't be jz the tittle and then the sentence above and make the entire post right.
i think this blog has truly reveal what kind of person i am. never stay focus kind wtf.
again, BACK TO THE MAIN POINT.
i super cannot tahan girl who purposely take pic and show their bras and all.
cleavage still ok, as a C cup ppl i understand that sometimes our good sisters wanna come out and absorb abit vitamin D from the sun. and it's ok to show cleavage, but it's not ok when u purposely take picture of urself with revealing bras. it's intended
it's not sexy at all ok.
it's indeed VERY SLUTTY.
not gonna post up picture here i believe u can easily find it online, on ppl's blog, friendste, facebook profile etc etc (ahemcindyfromMDGahem)
haih.
what's ur intention for putting up picture lik that online? showing to the public ?
expect ppl to say wow sexy ? or attract freak like "oh baby u r so hot can i have sex wit u?"
and den u went to ur guy friend and say "yer got ppl wana have sex wit me"
WTF
HAIH
girls like that jz make me wanna slap them and squeeze their boobs until they burst like u know how u squeeze the balloon so hard and they will burst like that.
okie la.
i'm done.
damn free. hope i can get a well pay job asap.
but today i'm going to talk about girls stuff, camwhore stuff, ineer stuff wtf. so many stuffs.
since the finding of friendster, it has been a heat thing to upload camwhore picture on the internet and so called sharing with friends, actually it's more than the public.
i think girls are scary creature. i seriously think alot of girls are scary tho they appeared to be harmless and sweet and cute and charming u know. but deep down inside, there were so many things running through their heads. u wouldn't know what they are thinking, or what's the intention behind.
this kind of girls appear everywhere, they were so many until ppl like me, with very small/narrow social network got the opportunity to meet with not one, but a few WTF.
i think it's pretty scary when some girls thought they are, really pretty wtf.
and then they think the whole wide world should go like what they wanted to be jz becz they think they are pretty wtf.
ok it's abit vague, lemme explain with examples la, easier to understand...
hmmm, ok like i'm a demanding girlfriend, becz my bf would jz love me and SHOULD buy me everything becz i'm pretty. something lik that la, it might be a shallow example but wat the heck can't think of any better example.
oh i'm quite impressed by those gfs who suck their bfs' money dry and den do not contribute.
sigh.
i hope i do not sound like a hypocrite, becz i admit that i spend quite alot of my bf's money especially on food hoho. but u see i contribute too.
it's like we 4 times we eat out there, i would pay for 1 of the meal.
and ar i would pay for the meal if it was me who brag him to being me there.
sound not fair right. but considering he gets 2K a month, and i only have........... 500 WTF.
and he never need to save when buying pressie to me, hence no advance planning.
me ? i need to squeez brian juice to think of things the need and want, and SAVE money from long long time ago.
i always start saving since november until his birthday in March wtf.
but it's all worth it la. i like his exciting look everytime he gets the surprise.
so now i hope this doesn't sound like a self-defense
ok now i don't know why i suddenly drag to this gf bf issue WTF !!!!!
my main point was suppose to be girls who like to camwhore with their cleavage or very sexual promt pose.
haih. but it can't be jz the tittle and then the sentence above and make the entire post right.
i think this blog has truly reveal what kind of person i am. never stay focus kind wtf.
again, BACK TO THE MAIN POINT.
i super cannot tahan girl who purposely take pic and show their bras and all.
cleavage still ok, as a C cup ppl i understand that sometimes our good sisters wanna come out and absorb abit vitamin D from the sun. and it's ok to show cleavage, but it's not ok when u purposely take picture of urself with revealing bras. it's intended
it's not sexy at all ok.
it's indeed VERY SLUTTY.
not gonna post up picture here i believe u can easily find it online, on ppl's blog, friendste, facebook profile etc etc (ahemcindyfromMDGahem)
haih.
what's ur intention for putting up picture lik that online? showing to the public ?
expect ppl to say wow sexy ? or attract freak like "oh baby u r so hot can i have sex wit u?"
and den u went to ur guy friend and say "yer got ppl wana have sex wit me"
WTF
HAIH
girls like that jz make me wanna slap them and squeeze their boobs until they burst like u know how u squeeze the balloon so hard and they will burst like that.
okie la.
i'm done.
damn free. hope i can get a well pay job asap.
beware, be cautious, be very afraid
Posted in on 1:26 AM by Belle
the world is so chaotic now. first it's swine flu, which triggered back in Feb but only taken seriously in April.
now everyone's so afraid, wearing mask when they go out, no longer shake hands becz apparently u can get the germs/virus like that. no hugging. no dining in.
i still not sure what H1N1 is about, only know that it's dead causing virus, symptom is high fever and flu ?
so be careful everyone. wash ur hands, hygiene is very important.
(eh i jz noticed blogspot got MS office feature !!! spelling correction) wuuuuuu
ok, mom jz told me a shocking news, a friend of hers jz got robbed.
she was walking by the roadside after she parked her car at some housing area, and then suddenly blacked out. when she woke up she realized that she had been knocked on the head, fainted on the road side. the left/right side of her body was all scratched, bleeding, head bleeding, probably need stitches... eye swollen. this incident happened very very near my house.
terrible !!!! horrible !!!!
remind me of the snatching incident that i've experienced few years back.
nowhere is safe in Malaysia.
so girls, be very careful.
becz those bastards/jerks/asshole whatever bad names on earth would target on female
becz we r PHYSICALLY weak !!!
dun think u're black belt very geng !! jz be very careful !!
avoid walking by roadside, avoid being alone in public.
train ur lungs, becz u need a bigger lung to scream louder i guess.
sigh. wat the hell is wrong with those ppl !!!!!!!!!
i really hope the government could do something.
besides approving so construction projects that cause bad traffic can.
whoever knows how to pray... pray for the world ok.
very emo Belle.
now everyone's so afraid, wearing mask when they go out, no longer shake hands becz apparently u can get the germs/virus like that. no hugging. no dining in.
i still not sure what H1N1 is about, only know that it's dead causing virus, symptom is high fever and flu ?
so be careful everyone. wash ur hands, hygiene is very important.
(eh i jz noticed blogspot got MS office feature !!! spelling correction) wuuuuuu
ok, mom jz told me a shocking news, a friend of hers jz got robbed.
she was walking by the roadside after she parked her car at some housing area, and then suddenly blacked out. when she woke up she realized that she had been knocked on the head, fainted on the road side. the left/right side of her body was all scratched, bleeding, head bleeding, probably need stitches... eye swollen. this incident happened very very near my house.
terrible !!!! horrible !!!!
remind me of the snatching incident that i've experienced few years back.
nowhere is safe in Malaysia.
so girls, be very careful.
becz those bastards/jerks/asshole whatever bad names on earth would target on female
becz we r PHYSICALLY weak !!!
dun think u're black belt very geng !! jz be very careful !!
avoid walking by roadside, avoid being alone in public.
train ur lungs, becz u need a bigger lung to scream louder i guess.
sigh. wat the hell is wrong with those ppl !!!!!!!!!
i really hope the government could do something.
besides approving so construction projects that cause bad traffic can.
whoever knows how to pray... pray for the world ok.
very emo Belle.
that's it.
Posted in on 7:54 AM by Belle
so that's it. i'm done with everything.
don't want anymore interception. pray pray pray everything goes well.
am looking for a job now :(
i really miss the girls. i miss the time when we all get together laughing at each other.
those were the days :(
very free now, stay at home forever (rawang is considered as my 2nd home).
i'm such a boring person !!!! friends working already.
thesis defense didn't go to well i guess.
didn't really present anything. they were asking so much questions and yea, tho i manage to answer, they didn't seem to satisfy with it. wuhuhuhu. i was so nervous until i begin to sweat in air con room, and need to wipe away sweat on my forehead.
that was how nervous i am.
but i can never feel so relieve after the defense. pheeew ~
duno what to work as. very fan !!!!!
officially hunting for a job now, wanted to start on May, duno if it's possible.
awww.... my resume doesn't seem too attractive oso. sigh.
hope Vern enjoys her UK trip, and it seems like everyone is going to UK too hahahha
right, hope they could suggest places to visit to after they came back
as i am also going by the end of the year ! can't wait !!!
only problem now is pounds, the currency seems to be increasing, but alot of rumour saying UK bank is going a really rough time and going to bankrupt anytime soon.
if lik dat the pounds, the money would have become plain paper wei.
sigh.
so fan.
wtf.
i find that my entry has never have any proper ending.
today i shall end this post by saying the end. WTF.
the end.
don't want anymore interception. pray pray pray everything goes well.
am looking for a job now :(
i really miss the girls. i miss the time when we all get together laughing at each other.
those were the days :(
very free now, stay at home forever (rawang is considered as my 2nd home).
i'm such a boring person !!!! friends working already.
thesis defense didn't go to well i guess.
didn't really present anything. they were asking so much questions and yea, tho i manage to answer, they didn't seem to satisfy with it. wuhuhuhu. i was so nervous until i begin to sweat in air con room, and need to wipe away sweat on my forehead.
that was how nervous i am.
but i can never feel so relieve after the defense. pheeew ~
duno what to work as. very fan !!!!!
officially hunting for a job now, wanted to start on May, duno if it's possible.
awww.... my resume doesn't seem too attractive oso. sigh.
hope Vern enjoys her UK trip, and it seems like everyone is going to UK too hahahha
right, hope they could suggest places to visit to after they came back
as i am also going by the end of the year ! can't wait !!!
only problem now is pounds, the currency seems to be increasing, but alot of rumour saying UK bank is going a really rough time and going to bankrupt anytime soon.
if lik dat the pounds, the money would have become plain paper wei.
sigh.
so fan.
wtf.
i find that my entry has never have any proper ending.
today i shall end this post by saying the end. WTF.
the end.
ish
Posted in on 6:22 AM by Belle
life cannot be happier without college. at least for now. hehe.
thesis due, final's over, upcoming is the defense.
but i can't feel more relieve.
oooh, life.
tmr vern flying to UK, hereby, wish her sun sun lei lei, have a nice and safe trip :)
everyone's doing their own things, and i'm looking for a well paid job
bcz i'm in need of $$$.
arh, life.
overheard some kids' conversation the other day
"the teacher very good one, let us play in her class"
"wa my teacher better lo ! she even allow psp"
wtf ?
ahahhahahhahhahhaha but bring back alot of school time memory...
thinking back of the old times really makes me wanna go back even more.
just when i am about to finish uni, suddenly i miss my girls so much so much.
wish those times we've spent together, the jokes, the class replacements.
the assignments, how we encourage each other and how we look at each others' stress look
how we have small fights over projects.
oooh i just miss those days.
becz it's over, and it would never come back.......
all i can think about now is to maintain the friendship.
hope that we won't change to much, if do, to a better self i hope :)
good luck everyone.
with love :)
thesis due, final's over, upcoming is the defense.
but i can't feel more relieve.
oooh, life.
tmr vern flying to UK, hereby, wish her sun sun lei lei, have a nice and safe trip :)
everyone's doing their own things, and i'm looking for a well paid job
bcz i'm in need of $$$.
arh, life.
overheard some kids' conversation the other day
"the teacher very good one, let us play in her class"
"wa my teacher better lo ! she even allow psp"
wtf ?
ahahhahahhahhahhaha but bring back alot of school time memory...
thinking back of the old times really makes me wanna go back even more.
just when i am about to finish uni, suddenly i miss my girls so much so much.
wish those times we've spent together, the jokes, the class replacements.
the assignments, how we encourage each other and how we look at each others' stress look
how we have small fights over projects.
oooh i just miss those days.
becz it's over, and it would never come back.......
all i can think about now is to maintain the friendship.
hope that we won't change to much, if do, to a better self i hope :)
good luck everyone.
with love :)
fate
Posted in on 9:31 AM by Belle
i think this should make a really good research topic.
but it's not science.
it's hard, if not impossible to measure, to compare, to make hypothesis, to validate to test the realiabilty so on and so forth.
i might use meta analysis, but that could drive you nuts becauce u will then have no idea of what am i trying to say.
....
sometimes, i feel that when it's not meant to be then it's not.
i think i'm a creepy creature.
i am made up of money. but seriously, without money, how can one survive right.
even if you wanted to plant vege or feed chicken on your own, you would need money to buy soil, to buy fertiliser and so on right.
now i gotta admit i calculate too much. i'm too calculative, and i'm too busybody.
it's so hard to live a happy life like me.
by chance, i visited a blog of an old friend of mine, we lost contact for years, and we are no longer friends.
and her bf treated her very well i would say.
sometimes i would think, becasue i have the strong urge to see beautiful things
and i can't be with someone whom i do not like their physical appearance... i lost chances.
i let go some guys that i might love to spend my whole life with.
i got togehter wth my current bf becasue i adore his face. i'm serious, i even thick skin enough to be friended him when he had a gf back then.
sigh.
i duno, i believe in karma one.
i love new experience, i love surprises i love to try out new things and i like people who are innovative and have vision for future.
i duno how come i never met any friends that could become my BFF..
i started to think it's my problem.
no one is perfect i know.
but i believe that some people could just click so well that they can become BFF
when they have arguements they could talk about it not feeling offensive and defensive.
i am so tired in maintaining friendship.
because i feel that when i disclose too much, people tend to step over the boundary
they do not self-reflect. and i hate that feeling.
i begin to dislike them.
because i think they are wrong and i know they can't take opinion.
they would cry and say i'm mean.
that's how i would feel after sometime when i got really close with someone.
thinking back i really didn't have much close girl friends.
i'm sucha failure.
or my perception is wrong....
close friends don't need to disclose that much to each other
i don't know.
i'm so contradicting i'm afraid i'm gonna be crazy someday.
this is a free flow writing so i'm not thinking appropriately, so do not feel offensive i'm not talking about anyone, i'm jz talking about myself.
and seriously, i love the feeling of being pampered too.
but it's not science.
it's hard, if not impossible to measure, to compare, to make hypothesis, to validate to test the realiabilty so on and so forth.
i might use meta analysis, but that could drive you nuts becauce u will then have no idea of what am i trying to say.
....
sometimes, i feel that when it's not meant to be then it's not.
i think i'm a creepy creature.
i am made up of money. but seriously, without money, how can one survive right.
even if you wanted to plant vege or feed chicken on your own, you would need money to buy soil, to buy fertiliser and so on right.
now i gotta admit i calculate too much. i'm too calculative, and i'm too busybody.
it's so hard to live a happy life like me.
by chance, i visited a blog of an old friend of mine, we lost contact for years, and we are no longer friends.
and her bf treated her very well i would say.
sometimes i would think, becasue i have the strong urge to see beautiful things
and i can't be with someone whom i do not like their physical appearance... i lost chances.
i let go some guys that i might love to spend my whole life with.
i got togehter wth my current bf becasue i adore his face. i'm serious, i even thick skin enough to be friended him when he had a gf back then.
sigh.
i duno, i believe in karma one.
i love new experience, i love surprises i love to try out new things and i like people who are innovative and have vision for future.
i duno how come i never met any friends that could become my BFF..
i started to think it's my problem.
no one is perfect i know.
but i believe that some people could just click so well that they can become BFF
when they have arguements they could talk about it not feeling offensive and defensive.
i am so tired in maintaining friendship.
because i feel that when i disclose too much, people tend to step over the boundary
they do not self-reflect. and i hate that feeling.
i begin to dislike them.
because i think they are wrong and i know they can't take opinion.
they would cry and say i'm mean.
that's how i would feel after sometime when i got really close with someone.
thinking back i really didn't have much close girl friends.
i'm sucha failure.
or my perception is wrong....
close friends don't need to disclose that much to each other
i don't know.
i'm so contradicting i'm afraid i'm gonna be crazy someday.
this is a free flow writing so i'm not thinking appropriately, so do not feel offensive i'm not talking about anyone, i'm jz talking about myself.
and seriously, i love the feeling of being pampered too.
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