uncertainties

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realized that i always talk abt emo emo stuff here.

so tot of beginning of haha and then continue with emo stuff wtf.

ok la, i admit i'm an emo bitch.

today i'm here to talk abt uncetainties.

uncertainties exist when you don't have control over everything that revolves around you.

i think.

uncertainties there are, becasue there is always a *shit forgot what i wanted to say because jz answered a phone call w tf*

nevermind that

conclusion is, nothing is impossible.

be surprised ok.

the locus of control stresses ppl.

why would ppl be stressed when they are preparing to sit for examination.

because they are worrying don't know what questions are coming out, they have no control over it. sadly, TO ME LA, even the lecturer gave tips, it's worries me more because then there would be higher expectation. wtf wtf. damn annoying.



so i think interpersonal relationship also stresses people alot, becasue we have no control over it.

we can't control what ppl think about you.

we can't control the hatred, the likable that we have towards people.

jz lik how i hate the big mouth WTF !!!!

i damn scare got karma now, becz i keep being sarcastic abt ppl's big mouth, so i would have son'daughter with SUPER BIG MOUTH or my mouth grows bigger each day without me realizing it. so when one morning i wake up and look into the mirror and eh can't recognize myself.

omg sorry baby mama really sorry u wtf *ma ma dui lei ng zu* WTF



so the other day when i was glancing through facebook, this big mouth (ok, i will never say BIG MOUTH AFTER THIS but to replace with BM la WTF WTF).

has pictures of everyone which were taken the other day when we hang out.

note that we didn't hang out often because I DON"T LIKE HER. no i hate her, to be exact.

because i simply don't like her behavior attitute personalities charateristic and her mouth WTF.

in short, she is disgusting to me la.

omg i hope she reads this.

and her english is so sad even i would forwn reading it

e,g: how do you describe food which are nice, TASTY MA SO SIMPLE HELLO EVEN A 3 YEARS OLD KNOWS. she wrote there: wa, super taste a.

sigh.

i'm sorry because i hate you.

ok la i know i have no right to laugh at this kinda thing bcz i'm not good myself.

but wat the heck because i hate you la.

omg.

eh WTF WHY DID I DRAG TILL SO FAR AWAY.

the main point is, she uploaded pictures ALMOST immediately after the outing.

which included 2 couple picturs of myself and the other friends' (hope i didn't make it too complicated) obviously i saw those pics la k.

and then jz right after la, i thick face uploaded an album of myself and boi' (in love again)

the couple picture of mine was gone !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

deleted.

jz like shit being flushed !!!!!

and then the other friends' couple pic is still there.

coincident or what ?

hahahahahhahahahah sigh.

omg, now i know, someone who has a BM doesn't mean would have a big heart WTF.



yeah ok at least i shared something interesting here today wtf a new beginning.



hmm... i find that i'm quite good at entertaining myself.

sigh so sad.

ok ok bye bye

i miss everyone.

ok i know only zizi and tiffany read this la.

random thoughts.

Today at group counseling they talked about relationship. romantic relationship of course
but bothers youngster most now huh.
sometimes i'm really amused by young generation, frankly, i think i'm not at that age anymore.
i feel... old.
i don't have the urge to impress ppl of opposite gender/sex.
so that explains my weight gain wtf. self-defense mechanical.
due to confedentiality, i won't disclose the detail that we have talked about,
but the topic itself is very complicated thing.
break up is undeniable very heart-breaking, but life goes on.
i know i'm tlaking like it's easy, but hey i've gone through that too.
but i didn't share a single bit about my story, not because i'm not comfortable of sharing it, just that i really feel it's not necessary.
everyone has a different experience, but after all, only you can help youself.
that's the most important thing.
my experience of breaking up is, i tended to self-pity alot.
i think oh that was the end of the world i jz got dumped by the guy i loved,
when i didn't even know what love is.
it's not jz hugging kissing cuddling buying present kinda thing.
it surely is more in-depth. and i'm sure one will not understand it until they grow up.
i blame it on the slow development of some RANDOM brain neurons wtf.

the point is, people often think that they need help from others when they break up.
they need alot of companion to talk about how sad they are
how terrible the guy was
how they wanted to patch back
how things might work out if they were bla bla bla.
ooh.
if you don't allot yourself to let it go.
it will haunt you forever.
it's painful
but the pain is not forever. imagine, if you were with the wrong guy,
then in the future he would be torturing you until the end of the day wtf.

aiya, duno la, why am i talking all these things here.
jz duno whom to talk to maybe. haha.
oh dear dairy wtf !!!!!
so pathetic one !!!!!!!!!!!!
bye.

hello i'm not dead.

yes i'm back. i know. not like anyone is expecting for my update.
jz some blabbling before i go crazy again.
mid term is coming, i'm slacking so seriously it's not even funny.
omg.
i think after this degree, i really really really don't wanna involve in assignments, APA and citations anymore. gosh. it shakens me just by thinking abt it.
i know
in less than 2 months time everything's gonna come to an end.
but i'm so addicted to psp nowadays it's not even funny.
i feel so left out.
all i did were, eat and den lying there playing psp.
so u can imagine i'm getting fatter as days passed by.
haih.
to conclude my life.
it sucks.
i really need to get out of it.
i need some positive power.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omg.
i seriously need help.

diet

i'm in an extreme need to lose like 10 Kgs.
but i'm craving for maggi mee.
wtf.
ARH !!!!!!!!!!
FOOD HERE I COME.
OH no wait i can't.
OH why am i drooling one.
OH hey arh looks so delicious.
Oh arh wtf imma kill myself. !!!!!!!

Regards from Penang :)

tee hee, sometimes when you online at a different place updating blog at a different place
it would be a total different feeling yo.
I'm now in penang !!!!!!!
gahahhaa.... hotel is FANTASTIC
rasa sayang i will miss you.
i believe won't be coming back anytime soon, too expensive tsk tsk.
summore the safety guard damn racist, if you were asian, then they would check your room number and all one, "excuse me are you outsider or customer"
lik wtf. if we were guai lou i'm sure they won't be like that one lor.
becz according to my boi, shangri-la in penang got 2 branches one,
golden sand and rasa sayang, the latter one is meant for foreigners.
wa, i duno if who is trying to impress who, but the atmosphere is freaking owesome.
i'm not exaggerating i tell you hoho !!!
this trip is more fun than i've expected ler, duno y. haha.
ok off to go.
hope everyone has a wonderful time too
muuah ~

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

:) i hereby wishing everyone happy chinese new year.
may the economic turns better. everyone stays healthy. be happy.
and i want a brand new me :)
hohoho. this is considered a special year to me, being alone in college, CNY never go back to Johor and visit grandma. huhu. cz seriously lazy to travel so far.
Travis came back from UK and brought me something that i heart till faint :) AWWW.. thanks dude !!! *greatful contented smile wee*
can you see how happy i am ?
i'm blessed. so blessed.
so now all i need is more friends wtf. HAHAHAHHAA.
this year ang pao's kinda suk sui edi.
especially from parents, it's a 50% slashed comparing to last year's eh.
but nvm, it's edi alot compare to many ppl :)
thanks mom dad ~
hope this year would be a less tougher year for you...
stay healthy forever ok.
have a feeling that the relationship with my family is getting better and stronger.
like that feeling :) belongingness. u see :)

today my boi asked:" do you wanna stay in Banglow or double-storey?"
i asked back "if you have shark fin would you still eat glassnoodle (fake fin)?"
oh i'm not that materialistic right ? i'm juz realistic HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
defensive hoho.

Penang tomorrow !! positive thinking wtf !!! it's gonna be fun fun fun !!!!!! yeah
so happy gonna stay in renovated hotel which smells new !! wu hoo ~
am i not the luckiest woman in the world ?!
thank whoever it is :)

ok, so this post is damn random, suddenly this and that, it's becasue everytime when i blog, i dun have anything specific in mind, it's... you know, like some sort of free flow.
and i din mean to show off la. jz to note down how i'm feeling and in the future and flash back and think...wa.................................. last time....... wa........
or something like today in history wtf hahahahhaha. ok i'm done.

everyone gamble win lot lot ya :)

ever the same

some people just never seem to grow.
some people just never seem to stop buying.
some people just never stop judging.
some people, just like myself.