Been a While

Hey, i know it's been a while.
haven been blogging so long that i seriously need to google search and TRIED to look for my blog.
and then i read through those old entried that i have made.
like omfg damn childish.

i think it's a sign of growing old.
when u look back and found out how childish and bimboo you were.
Forgive my old self pls.
but one part in me that has not been changed and will never be is the materialistic side of mine wtf.

haihz, things have changed in the absence of blogging.
i am now a married woman and a mother to be.
life is happy :)
everyone is pampering me.
have changed job to Rawang.
quite the previous job because of the relocation and of course some dicipline problem i found in office heh.

ok i am actually writing this in the office.
most of the time i would be more occupied on my iphone and oh on the internet.
that's how free i am.
wanted to quite for baby's sake, but come to think of it why quite an easy job with moderate pay?
nyehehehe.
evil i am.

and money is too important at this stage of my life now.
too many things to afford.
oh well, what the heck.

i should learn to appreciate life and you know to think in a much mature way.

no one would be following this blog for now, hahaha i think that gives me more space in expressing the sentimental and depressed side of mine.

That's all for now.
:)
today is a happy day !

new plan for next year, back packing to NZ with the girls !
i am so expecting !!!

OMG HOW LONG ALREADY ?

HAHAHA i know i know.
i have gone MIA again. ok so sorry i totally forgot about this blog address and i totally can't remmeber i could log in through blogger.com

I THOUGH I LOST THIS BLOG ALREADY huhuhu..

k, stop being dramatic.

i think i have not been blogging since i came back from Europe ? wtf.

oh how i miss Europe, wish u can be there lik once every forth month wt wtf

Thinking about job changing because totally no prospect !!!

JIA YOU BELLE !!! you'll be a billion dollar/pounds wtf.

cannot simply put billion, later it's Rupia how ?!

wtf wtf.

imma end this post with wtf.

will continue if have the mood.

CNY post

HEY gong hei fatt choi !
time flies ok. i feel like i'm aging so quickly now. especially when you decided to get married, you would feel that you have suddenly grown so much within a few nights.
ish. Everyone is telling me there's so much to do for your wedding, but i can't feel that yet.
To be really honest... since young i've attended so many wedding dinner, and i found that most of the brides look very unhappy one...
now i kinda understand why. hmm... i think they might not have their dream wedding, as in everything is in others' control. it's not like their own wedding kinda thing.
hmm... i really really feel envious for those who got their garden wedding/ wedding held at seaside so romantic ho.

i might appear to be one of those unhappy brides too :<

Lost.

Have you ever feel like you have lost the motivation to keep on going?
Like, you don't know what you're living for.
Like, you don't give a damn shit about anything.
you know my mind fluctuates too quickly that sometimes i impress myself. wtf.
i always know i'm a greedy person.
i'm a very materialistic person. I believe in quality and quantity. wtf.
i believe more is better wtf.
When the world is revolving, i find myself slowly losing track of what's happening around. I always have ameter in my heart to measure everything. But now it seems that the measurement is no longer measurable.
I don't know if people believe in horoscope, but i always think that how those paper explained about Libra truly reflects who i am. (e.g beauty wtf, no i'm kidding, KAY)

haihz.

i am pampered since i was very little.
i got whatever that i wanted. literally. because i have a dad that finds me lovable despite my bad temper and stubbornness. haihz i feel so sorry for my parents to have a kid lik me seriously wtf. but haihz, i'll slowly make up for that ok, i swear.

and now i stated to earn money/working.
then i find that, ops. that lil money jz cannot afford my luxurious lifestyle.
HOW. can die.
so yup, i don't go to high class salon anymore.
i look for the cheapest salon possible. (price cheap only ok)
i no longer use bodyshop'a body shampoo (not until recently, UK sell cheap ma wtf)
i cut down my frequency of pedicure. i no longer buy expensive mascara T___T
i only buy clothes when they were on sale.
............ and i'm so not happy abt that.
sigh.

and now i feel that i find myself a very stingy husband.
haih.
so feel lik crying.
i know i should not ask too much.
but sigh, u know seeing people who got sponsor from bf/their man, i get jealous too ok.
for one chinese new year ppl can jz buy 15 sets of clothes, 15 SETS u know. not pieces. then went for spa/hairdo/mani pedi wat so ever. jz for CNY.
anniversary got gift. CARTIER ring. anniversary only lo. valentine's day got rolex.
college student only lorrr..........
haihzzzzzzzzz..........

i think i'm gonna get my diamond as our wedding band.
go bali for honeymoon la.
mahfuker.
dun wanna get married edi. no mood ar.
bye.

Wedding

Yup. everyone should know it by now.
I'm getting married <3. God knows how long i've been waiting for this day to come. But when it comes. I still find it unbelivable.
Getting married is all abt money.
Been looking for the best wedding bands. They cost up to 15k for a pair.
It's really killing me man !
so bloody expensive.
But now everything is not set.
Date comes 1st, then venue, then guest list.
Wedding pictures, honeymoon. Whether i should go get a couture for wedding dress anot ? teehee. arh ! wedding rocks.

Overdued.

hi there ~
i know it's kinda late to announce this.
but yea.... i'm back form the trip wtf.
and also, engaged.
*gasp* *awww~~ *
i know.
that was a total surprise.
sorry no pics yet. too lazy to transfer.
will update soon when i have the mood teehee.

Greetings from UK

hey peps ! greetings from UK yo !!
weather here is so damn cold ! but not cold until can die k wtf
i like this place except that it's full of ciggs smell :< uek
ok so long for now, can't update much as i haven really started exploring around.
jet lag wtf !
slept at 6 am uk time. and then didn't sleep soundly but woke up at 9 am T__T
ish.
using hte macbook actually, seriously not user friendly lo k.
i think it tries not to be like windows. that's why it's so hard to use right.
but i like its keypad <3
so addictive i jz feel like typing it forever ~~
ok grocery shopping later !
can't afford to eat outside for every meals
dirt cheap if you don't convert to RM la.
taaa ~~

ops.

HEY !!! peeps ~ sorry been MIA for a while.
arh haven really updated since i started working aye ?
omg i jz gotta say i'm in love with this company.
The management is nice, cool, fun.
The colleagues are friendly, humble, i think.
and they are so generous !!!
jz came back from company dinner actually. teehee.
they gave away cash voucher and door gift upon arrival !
then got lucky draw ~ u wouldn't believe what i've got !!!!!!
iiiiiiiIIIPOD !! wtf !
i've nv been so lucky one lo, besides getting william to fall in love with me,
this is the 2d luckiest thing i've encounter wtf hahahahahhaha
and europe is awaiting for me, waving at me !!
OMG i'm so so so excited !!!
anyone in europe let's meet up wtf <3
ok ciao

Heyz

Been missing for a while :> how art thou ?
hehehehehhehe
i must say working is fun !
people in the office are generally nice :)
boss is damn cool...
met a photographing maniac there ! hoping to learn more things from him !!!
and arr..... u can leave whenever the jobs are done !!! damn cool right ?
eheehehhee....
aw this job is too cool !!
3 weeks away from europe !
any orders girls ?

Another Sunday

Walaoooooo man....
time flies ! and it's now sunday already !!! can you believe it ? no i cannot !
which means... my europe trip is getting nearer !!!!!
so excited i'm gonna faint liao....
ok this trip is kinda gan zeong... becz i don't speak their language. e.g. France.
i sacred i get lost in the cities and cannot find my way back *touchwood* and then noone can help me becz they can't understand me !
i can only say bonjour wtf wtf.
so these weeks have been quite a romantic weekends la... teeheee... not bad kinda lik it when you have some personal moment. <3
but i have weird dreams last night... damn i hate that kinda dreams...
dreaming that my couple friends fought... wtf fought in my dream ! go away already
then i got damn pissed.
ish... dun like ler... i'm already not a happy person, in dream oso i have to get pissed. wtf.
really wanna bug me liddat meh !!!!

so i'm trying to sort out a routine in Italy la... Venice is a must go.
but scared very cold ler wtf.
then i wanna go... Florence, Milan, Rome...
duno got time anot... i think we got lik 5 days in italy.
ish ish ~
hope this trip can be a perfectly planned one.

can't wait for the day that i can actually shout out loud... u know the here i come phrase. teehee ~
miss me peps :>
bcz i miss u all.
ta !

oHaiz

hey peps... ! *waving frantically*
aww i'm so sleepy...
i heart working... it makes me feel lik i've used my brain,
but bcz i've not been using it for a while,
there were few moments where i blanked out abit
and can't seem to understand what people were talking.
ok i believe i will become the world fastest typist.
because this work jz require loads and loads of typing.
kinda enjoy the learning process.
ppl there are generally nice, haven sense any politics jz yet.
*fingers crossed*

so i had a wonderful weekend, went Bird Park to try out photoshooting.
wanna go more more and MORE place to take pics.
but oh well...i gotta say, my skills sucks.
few pics for ur view hehe.
i think it's better not to shop and watch movie only, go and hang around this kinda places. :> it can be fun.






boifren was super lovely kay, willing to bring me there.
sacrifice his nap.
i'm so pampered. <3
mayb going there on every weekend wtf hahahha.

2 updates in a day !

hey yo so in a talking mood but no one to chat with right now.
jz came back from a birthay celebration.
dinner @ Nagomi/Nagoya/Na-whatever
food are nice :)
and quite reasonable !!
eh it's really worth trying ler, with HSBC credit card you can even enjoy a 15% discount for meat muahhaha. i love surprises ~
5 of us dined in only RM142 !!!!!
wow ~ hoho.
they have brances in Jln Yap Kuan Seng, Jaya One and Hartamas shopping center :)
picture later.

i think i made a bright decision not to spill everything
cz it seems that everything is fine today :>
i think often my thought was restrained so that i was thinking in a negative way
when i din really mean it.
hehe.
well actually, sharing camera is not a bad thing afterall.
u get to capture the beautiful side of a person :)
and heck, that makes me happy too ~
good night

fat

haihz. i know i have repeated this a hundred times.
but i really don't know what am i gonna do with it.
why ppl eat and i also eat. but i would become lik this one.
uber fat ok.
i gained so much weight that noone can ever recognize me T___T fml fml
haihz.
boifriend has been complaining on me gaining weight ever since.
ok, totally my fault.
gonna lose 5 kgs b4 i go UK.
actually i'm jz praying to god wtf.
jz lemme lose 5 kgs by miracle.

Early

good morning everyone, it's 9.15 am now. a saturday.
well i have to say i'm not an early person.
but whenever there's something stucked in my mind, i can never sleep well.
considering i slept at 3am this morning and wake up at 7am.
that's hell too lil for someone lik me T___T
so everyone should have known about the zero fare promotion from Air Asia right.
Just when everyone is so crazy over it, i'm beginning to have hatred towards them.
So tricky can.
they charged u zero fare but it's on some random shiatty dates,
and then so long more to go, and then and then the worse part is the rate change like the share market value, few minutes ago i was still looking at the rate, and then suddenly i refresh and the rate is NO MORE T___T
wtf.
damn gan zeong booking for air asia.
so my friend called and suggested we went Langkawi cz apparently there's this zero flight thing and we paid 0 fare.
would u believe if it's only 30 bucks for 2 persons?
i wouldn't lo.
and in fact, IT IS IMPOSSIBLE lo
there's so many hidden charges ok.
tax is cheap nvm, then when u pick seat they charge u, insurance they charge u, luggage they charge u.
so over all minimum pay is still over 50 per person.
ish.
some ppl are jz naive.
some ppl jz always sit back and comment, no ideas but alot of opposals.
some ppl can nv bother to be left out.
some ppl only know to think of themselves.
some ppl nv bother to contribute a lil.
some ppl only knows to sit back and get angry.
some ppl jz pissed the hell out of me.

and u know what. i'm no longer the me b4.
i won't tell u everything to your face.
cz i'm so tired.
of needig to apologise and beg for forgiveness.
when apparently both parties oso at fault.
mayb it's jz me who think it that way.
but why oh why some ppl can jz fight and then patch back so easily
........ but it's nv been me.
air asia sucks la.
called to customer service 25 minutes and only operator talking to me.
then when i finally get to a real person, she asked me to leave my detail and call back within 24 hours. wtf.

Confession of a Shopaholics

ok i have sinned.
i bought the canon 1000D. i know i promised to save up.
despite the stage of no income.'
i still spend like i were a millionaire.
but i think it's worth it.
at least i haven regret owning it.
but what i dun really like is, some ppl dun have to spend a single cent, dun have to carry a single minute of the oh so heavy camera...
get to enjoy pretty pics and play with my brand new camera.
they would go like "hey bring along ur camera ba, i'm addicted to it already"
...............................
mayb i'm not generous enough to share my everything.
oh, spare me.
i have too many things which i don't like already.

Designers' Brand

so talking about this.
I have been stuffing myself with dramas and food lately.
Gossip girl is one of the it shows that i have been long to watch.
I didn't have any access to it then.
But lately thanks to pps.tv i get to indulge myself with dramas to pass my meaningless life yay.

*haih this is getting so mafan everytime i have to backspace wtf and cahnge to yay, wtf*

and i'm so surprise that i can name so many bags that the girls used in the show.
and it kinda freak me, because that also mean my instinct is getting out of me.
materialistic.
thank you.
those are all the bags that i can't afford. at least now.
people don't use Gucci nor LV.
I'm not trying to be a hypocrite or something,
but seriously i'm quite sick of everything getting a LV and Gucci on street these days.
go to the mall and u can spot at least 19865845 ppl carrying a LV speedy or neverfull.
worse, some even carry a replica.
gotta respect their courage tho.
i used to tell ppl i would buy a slightly more expensive handbag becz i am fond of their quality.
but now i'm not sure anymore.
i think my chin was higher when i carry a bag that u can name the band and walk into a shop.
sigh.
hypocrite hypocrite hypocrite.
ok i admit some of the LV and Gucci are nice.
i said i'm sick of ppl getting the same bag doesn't mean i don't like it.
and i might carry one in later days.
who knows.

all the while i think Jimmy Choo is doing a great job on the Cluth/wallet.
his design is young, sophisticated aiya donch know how to describe but it's the way i like it.


Filipa Wallet *drools*
ok la don't care if it's last season's cz i clearly donch know about this
i live in a country with no seasons. hokay.
haihz...
and MiuMiu
donch worry i'm just DROOLING over them.
i won't have the money to buy them la ok.
they are my motivation to earn.
ta.

Canon

No it's not about Canon D. i'm not that literate. really.
Lately i don't know why, i become so obsessed with camera.
and it's not just some camera, it's SLR.
not only that, I also have a thing for blackberry.
haihzz.
donch know. i'm living like a millionaire wtf.ok i know control.
i'm doing it now, i'm just saying.
but... oh.... look at this baybeeee.....



hmmmm............. any better suggestion?

i feel like i'm nth

i think right at the beginning...
i'm already a failure.
because i always plan so far.
and the plans never go how i want them to be.

WHY !

no fancy pictures....
no fancy outings......
my life is so dull
lifeless
damn it i jz feel lik i wanna die.
FUCK THIS SHIT.
i hope i can start everything over again.

Interview

so i'm very active in finding jobs again.
reason being, i don't think i'm really that capable to run my own business wtf.
the other day i went for an interview with Citibank.
sigh, another chinese speaking work place.
i wonder if it's all fate.
why do all english ppl get to work with english ppl.
and ppl like me would jz have a cina speaking work place ?
i need someone to enlighten my English ma.
hmm, so talking about the interview, that was actually a sales position.
Internet credit card sales.
haih, sales is not my thing, but they said min is up to 3K a month.
quite tempting but u have to talk till your tongue rots everyday ler.
and with very high risk of getting scolded.
becz you would always annoy the hell out of ppl.
not sure if wanna take that job anot.
it's so far eh. and you know the traffic in KL. being stuck in the traffic jam everyday is not funny.

happy deepavali ppl.
arh those art thing is so nice.
i like the color and the blings.
haihz. kinda regretted to go UK eh.
gotta spent so much there, so i'm now very constraint with the spending,
don;t like :(
it's sales everywhere and i can't buy a thing !!
yer !
YER !!!!!
i hate that feeling when i'm broke.
ok citibank mayb i should go to you wtf.
hehehhe....
the reason why i'm updating this blog so often is
yea, firstly damn free.
holiday and my boifrend only knows to sleep !!!! so pissed ar !!!!
he edi slept till 11am today ok. now still sleep.
damn i wan a new boyfriend i mean it ! so sian hokay.
fuck it i'm so annoyed i don't know what exactly i'm pissed of.
secondly,
i'm very in love with this new keyboard.
it's kinda like a macbook's keyboard for desktop heheh
i like i like i like.
that's why i keep on typing with it. hoho.
other day i tried to connect this keyboard to my lappie and do the typing hahaha
yea i'm so addicted liddat.
very stupid indeed.
hehe.
ciao ~
watching cloudy with a change of meatballs tonite !
hope it's nice hehhehe.
3D yo !!

Growing up

some people said, hey look groing up is not as scary as it seems to be
well others might say, i don't wanna grow up, studying is honeymoon period in everyone life.
i hate to say this, but i'm beginning to see things as how it is right now.
sorry to say this post would be another gloomy Belle's pattern entry yay.

as time passed by, you get to experience with alot of things, and that lessons that you've learned from there, is a process of growing. it's impossible that you have learned nothing.
there is a saying, there is no story not worth listening.
i cannot agree more.
even i've worked a short while in compumed this kinda stupid company, i learned about how to pick the right boss as well.
learned things about labour law, how to protect yourself from wicked HR.
and most importantly, i started to think about responsibility.
think about what and where i want myself to be.
this process is surely tough, and it ain't easy.
for people like me, i would say i'm well protected, in term of you know, economically.
i never need to worry about money.
not saying i come from a wealthy family, but well i manage to get more than i need.
but today, i think i'm kinda contaminated.
as in, i've become so brand conscious.
i feel like, hey i want to get a bag that people could call it by names, and damn i want to get that designer's brand to wear on.
and that's what is way beyond i could afford. and at age of 23, it would be so shameful to get money from dad already.
i wanna make a wish list. by age of 30 i wish i would be making annual income of well "240000K"
muahhahahhahaha.
which is after deducting my luxurious expenses e.g make up, skin care, facial, gym, entertainment, traveling, charity, sponsoring parents to trip etc <3

ok so where am i again ?
oh i'm sorry talking about growing up,
i'm very aware that people around are so ambitious.
so ambitious until i feel that they are making friends with purpose.
like, it's not purely friendship thing anymore.
it frighten me, becz i feel lik i'm very innocent kinda ppl.
mayb i'm obsessed with the boundary thing. crap, like if i called my friends for a date, and i'm not suppose to mention anything about money, or business. that's not right.

ish.
i'm making this so complicated.
what i was trying to say is, i don't like making friends with a purpose.
and i really don't like people who approach other with purpose.
i'm very extreme is these cases
1. i would be very inferior when you don't wish to friend me, cz i would think i'm so worthless.
2. i would be very disgusted by your attitute when i know you wanna friend me for a purpose.

u know what... i'm really a sensitive person.
i used to be so proud, so proud that i'm right in all senses.
but today i regret so much on who i used to be.
now i jz need to get rid of the damn pounds, and get my social network back to life.